27.4.10

So Deep

I'm in a deep hole as far as my life goes.  The last two months have smacked me around and twisted me in so many different directions that I'm queasy and dizzy.  I thought I was behind 17 days ago and since then, my things to do have lapped me about 5 times.

I know what I have to do.  But I really don't want to do it.  Instead of trying to catch up, I'd really like to just cut my losses and start everything all over again.  Yes.  I'd like to.  What I'm going to do, though, is suck it up and put my head down for the last lap.  I was always good at the last lap.

It's going to be a long lap, though.  By the time I hit the wall at the end, I'll be spent and crabby.  For a while I'll wonder if it was worth it.  But it'll be done.  More than anything I just want to be caught up.

I have about 4 weeks to make up my homework and then the next wave of stuff will come along and thrash me until I hit the sand and find my way up again.  I'm a bit weary of the cycle, though.  I'd like to come out of the next go-round on dry land where at least I can keep my bearings.

7 comments:

catherine said...

Thinking of you, and sending you so many hugs, from far away.

(Have to add, I am hoping that both house and tooth are in a good place right now.)

But mostly just warm, fuzzy thoughts.

hannahjustbreathe said...

Ohhhh, my dear. I'm so sorry. What can I do?? Other than send words and flowers and happy thoughts??

bikramyogachick said...

It's like being a little tiny boat tossed around on giant waves...can't get a break! I know exactly how you feel. Good thing you have your yoga...hopefully you are still able to get there enough to help keep your head above the water.
I have been going to westside (awesome studio) but am thinking of wandering over to rainbow for some hot pilates next week. Have you taken that yet? I heard it's super hard!
Hang in there yogini....

Dorothy said...

Thanks, Ladies. I appreciate your hugs and thoughts. By the end of next week I hope to be almost even again. I wish I had more time to write because I have a lot on my mind, so I hope I can start doing more again soon.

Thanks again to you all. ^_ _^ (that's my toothless smile).

Kristie said...

Hey Dorothy! Thanks for stopping by my blog. The brown sugar meatloaf is one of my faves! If you want the recipe, I'll e-mail it to you! :)

Kristie said...

I also wanted to say that I've had a chance to read some of your blog and you are cracking me up. If you only heard some of my in laws shenanigans...man oh man.

Dorothy said...

Thanks Kristie! I'm glad you stopped by!